25 June 2017


I'm so happy this school year is almost over. Just one week left and I can just do whatever I want for a month or two. It feels good to end the year with good grades and awesome feedback. Looking back at this school year, i'm happy I went to this art school. I didn't had any expectations and I also didn't know what to do if I didn't apply.

What I learned this school year is that experimenting is important and fun. I only really experimented with fashion, but since last year around the same time I also experimented with some graphics. I didn't really know what I did, it was just fun to do and I think that is also what got me into art school. This year it taught me to just do and not be afraid to make mistakes because it's okay to do that. We are still learning and nothing has to be perfect I think. I know we have to get our points and we have to get good grades and it's nice to hear good feedback from the teachers, but in the end I think it's up to yourself what you are creating and what you want to show. What is the vision that you have and how do you want to show that? It's hard to please all the teachers, so don't even try to do that... It's a constant struggle, also for myself but in the end of the day you are at school for yourself. I think it's a good way to find your own style and own thing with experimenting with new techniques and styles.

I hope next school year will be just as awesome as this school year!

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~ RJ

Why do we want to create a perfect world?

17 June 2017




TOP - ???

I'm asking myself a lot why we want things to go perfect or look perfect. The world is not perfect and it's never going to be perfect, and that's okay. Why do we need to change and remove things to make things better? I'm writing myself this because i'm asking myself this a lot now.

A while back I took some pictures for an assignment of people and their bedrooms, as feedback I got this: I had to change things, it wasn't perfect, it wasn't enough. I could do better. I had to photoshop things away or I had to put another thing instead of it. I understood the feedback, but no. I didn't want to change things. I didn't want to photoshop things away. It was good how it was. Why should I change things when it was how it was? I know I am the creator of the picture. I know that I could change it, I know I could make it "perfect" with nothing in the way. But it wasn't my bedroom, it was theirs. It should be shown how it is and why should I even change it when it's not like that in reality.
That's why this is the focus point of this shoot in this post.

This is a shoot from today, how it is now. Yes, it is not perfect, there is trash everywhere and that's okay. I want to portrait this because we are struggling with this everyday. With social media we want to make things look perfect and show that everything is okay even when it's not. I know we like pretty pictures but it's also okay to make imperfect ones.

In the pictures i'm showing that i'm having a one-man party. (it explains the trash i'm surrounded with) The diamond teardrops represents how I feel just like the black and white pictures. The assymetric ponytails are not perfect, so is the world. I'm wearing this top I found when cleaning up. I think it's my brothers when he still played soccer when he was 8 or something haha. I took this belt from a skater skirt I recently bought from Aliexpress. I thought the outfit missed something extra. The shorts i'm wearing is one of my favorites! I love to wear when i'm chilling at home. It's really comfortable and it has pockets in case I want to wear them outside the house. During this shoot I also picked up my soft pink blanket I love to lay in or sleep with, in the pictures it represents I want to sleep because i'm tired of everything. 

I'm not okay, and that's okay.

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~ RJ


11 June 2017


I was not really sure if I liked the black background better or the plant background. First world problems right? I have this shirt for over 3 years now and honestly it is one of my favorite shirts ever! I have been wearing it indoors but also outdoors, the shirt is quite baggy so I also wear it as a pyjama sometimes.

This week was a weird one, a lot of things happend and it feels like that the time has gone too fast. We are in the middle of 2017 already, my first school year at artschool is ending!! I still have to pick what major I want to do next year... I'm still struggling what I want to do or what I don't want to do. I have been thinking a lot, not only about school but also about life. But sometimes I have to set my emotions away to accomplish my goals.

I also met up with Yona after almost 1 year! I told you it was crazy. Unfortunately I could only see her and her friend Laura for a few hours. Hopefully I will visit New York sometime in the future! Hey, maybe next year.

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~ RJ

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